Dear Mental Health,
Since graduating from college two years ago and entering this whole new universe of the real world, I have developed more than normal anxiety that seems to affect my everyday life to the point of losing my confidence and self-esteem that I have built during college.
Before college the only anxiety I had was only minor like test anxiety because I was not the best exam taker due to my previous learning disability when it comes to mental processing, but I was confident with my studying and worked hard to earn As and Bs each semester. With making good grades and making friends in college help build my confidence and self esteem. College felt like pleasure island where you believed you can be anything in the world once you earn that college degree…
Now, in the real world, my dear Aunt Anxiety decided to challenge me into a whole new level. The lump feeling in my throat turned into obsessive thoughts of my life decisions and the fear of failure. The anxiety became so overwhelming, I felt as though my secret weapons against it were no longer working.
If you ask if I also have depression, I was when I was on hormonal medication. It felt like every night I take it, I feel so much sadder to the point there was a morning where I could not stop crying. I had no reason behind the tears. The tears were just flowing like a continuous broken pipe. Therefore, I had to end it all together so I can be myself mentally.
After ending my hormonal medicine, within two weeks, I was myself again. I no longer feel depressed, but my dear Aunt Anxiety still comes and visits. In order to stop Aunt Anxiety from interfering in my life more than normal, I had to seek professional help.
Now, I am seeing a spiritual counselor. She is nice. I admit, the first meeting was a little intimidating because, like every human being, I did not want to be perceived as crazy , because I think I talked too much because I feel like my mind and body was just anxious for help, guidance, and peace.
Outside of being intimidated, I was excited because since graduating with a psychology degree, I always wanted to experience what it was like to have a spiritual counselor. To me, it feels so relieved to speak with a professional stranger because speaking with family and friends about your issues is only temporary relief because they love you so much that all they see is perfection, they will never fix that inner deep wound because they cannot see it. That is why it is important to speak with someone outside of your social circle.
When it comes to mental health, I cannot stress more about the advantage of seeking a counselor. Counseling can be affordable I have found counseling cheap as $65 per session. Counseling sessions are very flexible. Counseling is mostly once or twice a week for fifty minutes.. Some counselors provide sessions over the phone. Also, if you had a counselor that you did not agree with, there are a million other therapists to explore. Therefore, THERE IS NO EXCUSE!
Life Lesson #93: A healthy mind prepares for the physically challenges ahead.
Life Lesson #94: Never neglect yourself. Upgrade yourself.